Entry: 2026-11-03

: Asshole substitute teacher decided to ruin my fucking sleep with no reason aside from being able to feel morally above two random 16 year olds hes never gonna see again Ever. Like No Reason. Me sleeping in class doesnt even TICKLE his paycheck. and for what?? what did he think he was gonna get for giving me&my-friend a free shot????? a medal??? a cookie??? a thanks??? i could barely LOOK at his face without flipping him off. His voice just sounded even more annoyingly haughty through the rest of the class. Fuck you honestly. if i ever get a class with him again im skipping it the second i see his vexing face

: Im in class rn and ive got to admit. this girl is so good at talking wowies!1!!! thats a quality i really admire in people. being good at articulating and expressing ideas. personally, im chained by the shame of my voice, if not for that i think i could do. decent. not Good, just .ok. but I kinda wanna know how to get better at. being able to easily connect ideas together and put them out nicely verbally. its a really useful quality

:Got to draw more now that i have a place to post them at. I need to actually work on oc lore for starters. it actually makes me emotional how much They changed (and how the story hasnt. they just got more accurate really)

: first entry! very promising day, planning to sleep all throrough class ahah. but really. ive been managing to get things done which is so? alien to me? hhuh? everything is okay? i can get out of bed? ofcourse it comes at a price of not being able to handle real relationships nd avoiding consequences, but sure! its progress! im just not sure what changed exactly. its not that im doing what i want, since its not just the blog that managed to get me moving, but also literally any goal i have on my day to day life. or maybe it Is the blog, and having thoughts and writing them down is a real life goal (??) and motivates me to do things? ugh.whatEver. doesn t matter.